I'm gonna type here while I wait for Skyrim to load various locations. Or when I just get totally bored with it, because let's face it Skyrim is not exactly a challenging or original game and the pace is sooooo slow. But I am very sick with another summer sinus and upper respiratory system infection and I am refusing to use antibiotics this time if I can in any way avoid them so I am spending a lot of time on the couch with cups of tea, bowls of soup, glasses of water and piles of vitamins and my acupuncturist's prescriptions of Chinese herbal medications (which are generally far more effective than anything Western medicine has done for me lately). And slow paced games that don't require much attention or focus are great for this degree of illness, it doesn't matter if I drop my controller to hack up a bunch of disturbing green goo, nothing happens in the game anyway.
"They" found out what's wrong with me back in February a couple of weeks after Zak and I came home to LA. With my letter from the genetic counsellor in Montreal (who also told me to see a geneticist in LA if I could afford to because the wait list in Montreal was too long) telling various specialists like rheumatologists and geneticists to evaluate me for Ehlers Danlos Syndrome I was able to be seen quickly at Cedars Sinai and received my diagnosis from both a rheumatologist and a team of geneticists of Classical and Hypermobile Types Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. So my time in Montreal wasn't entirely wasted only nearly entirely wasted. Since then I've been doing aqua physical therapy twice a week (except for when I have infections like the one I've got now and the times I've developed costochondritis). I have a wheelchair that was amazingly generously donated to me and I have to wear wrist, knee, ankle and a back brace/posture support brace whenever I leave the apartment and sometimes even while at home. That's both knees, ankles, etc. I can go into details about the nature of my condition in a later blog but suffice it to say for now that it explains everything that has gone wrong with my body since I was a toddler and I've learnt a whole lot about what exactly has been happening to me my whole life and why I kept getting more and more ill and less and less capable of functioning like everyone else around me.
It has musculoskeletal, neurological, cardiovascular, gastrointestinal and immunological effects and symptoms along with a lot of common co-occurring conditions like Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia, Firbomyalgia, Myofascial Pain Syndrome (all of which I have), Chiari Malformation, even dental abnormalities, it also can affect the way the body absorbs and processes nutrition and medication.
It's genetic and I was born with Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, I most likely inherited it from my dad but he is still waiting to see a doctor about his condition up in Canada.
After a few months of the physical therapy though I am getting stronger and have noticed that my pain isn't quite as bad on a daily basis as it was six months ago. I still have too many bad days but there is some improvement so obviously getting a diagnosis has helped tremendously. I now also know what to be concerned about and what to simply accept as normal for me and can make the appropriate adjustments to my lifestyle.
This blog is pretty much a practice exercise since it's been so very long since I've written anything and I am (slowly) working on something fun with a bunch of other gamer girls I know. One of them is Apocalyptic Kitten aka Izzy or Isabelle Lillium. She's got Ehlers Danlos Syndrome too and is coming to visit Zak and I in a week and a half. Yay! She and I seem to get along exceptionally well and have a lot in common so I think we're gonna have a whole lot of fun.
This is my tumblr: www.mandymorbid.tumblr.com where I've been posting a lot in the past year. It was so much easier than blogger while I was bed ridden (mostly) during my months in Montreal to post photos there, and in the months I've been back in LA automatically updated from my instagram.
We've (Zak and I) have been playing a lot of games using Google +'s video chat feature with people all over the world and so that's been lots of fun and we've played some really great games. We're getting ready for a Star Wars campaign next week, I am starting a Changeling Victorian Lost game with some of the previously mentioned girls in about a week as well, and we got into a Burning Wheel campaign (only we've been told we're not playing it "right" of course, cue all the eye rolling) among others. There are some really fantastic creative people GMing games on G+ so if you wanna play PnP RPGs but can't find a local group I recommend getting on there.
Our local gaming group is back together since Frankie moved back to LA from NYC and is now my and Zak's roommate, though Satine is still super busy running drawing classes and D&D games over at Meltdown Comics in Hollywood, so we don't get her in too often anymore.
Drax the Destroyer my Dandie Dinmont terrier mutt is still kicking and going strong, at 14 years old the vet said he could live four or five more years! She could be wrong but it makes me happy nonetheless.
I went to San Diego Comic Con for the first time ever and I'm not sure I'd ever go back. At sitting height--because I have to use my wheelchair--with the crowds it's impossible to really see anything or get near booths and no one pays any attention to where they are walking so all my attention was focused on not running over strangers feet with my 200 lbs motorized chair. A few feet got run over accidentally despite my best efforts and I really don't feel bad because those were the rudest convention attendees who thought, even though I even tried to grab a couple of them to keep them from getting hurt, having legs that work means they get to walk into/jump in front of me to get or see whatever they wanted to no matter that these heavy scooters and motorized chairs don't really break that well even on the slowest speed. The lack of handicap accessible taxi's and transportation services was also a let down.
The best part of Comic Con was just hanging out with Zak's pals from DC comics and meeting a lot of the people that work there.
I have not retired from performing or modeling and I am slowly building up to launch a clips4sale store however my health must be my priority so the days I work are few and far between. I still cam sometimes, not too often yet, hoping to be able to do it more often as I get healthier, and I'm now over here on naked.com. Same goes for modeling. Working up to being able to do it more often again.
Kimberly Kane is now directing for Vivid which means whenever we hang out we hear about all the great and crazy ideas for movies everyone in our social circle has swimming around in their brains. Fun.
Alright. So practice/catch up blog is done for now. I'll be back here more often now.
I am sorry about dropping off the face of the planet right after that last post but my health deteriorated so rapidly that I couldn't write or deal with the auction results and soon I was flown back to Canada to try my luck with my homeland's health care system. I am still in Canada and will be for quite awhile and while I have no news to report of my medical condition and I am far from being well I have been assured that I am not in any immediate danger.
Zak is here with me now after a couple months of being separated. The longest time we've been apart since we met over 5 years ago, Drax is staying with my parents in another city until we move into our new place here September 1st. We still have our place in LA and eventually I will have the results of the auction taken care of or will simply re-do the sale if the original bidders are no longer interested, As I am too sick to travel it may take quite a long time--I am sorry.
Also a quick note about my wishlist. Since I have no access at the moment to some of the gifts sent me and most of the return addresses there will also be a significant delay in getting thank you packages sent out--as I also have no access to the dvds and 8X10s and stuff I send out to people who have been generous. However I assure you all that I have not forgotten and all the records have been saved so I can catch up when I have everything sent to me here or I am able to get back to LA.
So I have some used items that no longer fit me, some barely worn but-worn in photos and sets. Some of the bras are much too used to be really useful to any female interested in a well fitting bra and so are being sold mainly as fetish items, for example I am selling a bra that is a 28FF or 28F I believe, that is so used up and stretched out --had it since I was 19 or 20 years old-- that only someone who really wants a piece of old well loved oddly sized Mandy Morbid lingerie will be interested in purchasing.
Below are the photos and descriptions and sizes of the items I have photos of so far.
All are Freya bras with one exception and all require hand washing in cool water, and hang or lay flat to dry.
Auction will be held in the comments below and bidding will continue for a week. Final price does not include shipping but will include 3 candid pics of me spilling out of the too small bra you've won for your amusement.
Note: These are all old photos--more than a year or so with the exception of the yellow and black nameless one. They fit or mostly did at the time they were photographed but alas no longer.
Red Freya "Rio" bra sz 28F Good condition.
White Freya "Pollyanna Balcony Bra" sz 28G This is my proper size but it's slightly damaged from one accidental machine wash. Hardly worn.
Dark pink Freya "Jolie" sz 28F --as you can see much too small for me but very comfortable. Good condition but has been worn.
Black Freya "Jolie" sz 28F again very comfortable but wrong size for me. (I bought this again in a 28G) Decent condition, has been worn.
Black with blue flower print Freya "Pollyanna" sz 28FF Very well worn and loved.
Black and nude Freya "Lola Plunge Bra " sz 30F Obviously wishful thinking on my part when I bought this. Used mainly for photoshoots. Not worn as an "everyday" bra because it's the wrong size. Good condition.
Black, red, and cream/nude Freya "Jessica Plunge Bra" sz 28F Hardly worn, great condition.
Nude Freya "Active Sports Bra" sz 30DDD (was the closest I have ever come to finding a sports bra in my size--totally doesn't fit at all anymore--cannot squeeze into it.) Great condition. Hardly used.
Black Freya "Antoinette Bra" sz 28F sadly outgrown as all the 28F's are. Great condition.
One of my all time absolute favorites. Had for ages. From an old Freya collection from years ago. I cannot find the name of this item even online. It's 28F or 28FF the tag is very worn. Not sure about parting with this one so it'll only go for a good offer. Yellow with black stripes, little yellow rosette and ribbon detail.
Nude with white raised embroidered floral pattern. Leopard print inside. Victoria Secret sz 34A--was a hand me down. Padded. Worn for my Swamp Witch set for Suicide Girls only.
That isn't me on Deviant Art. I have never had a DA account. Ever. And I don't intend to seeing as how the moderators can't even get off their fat asses to ban the fake who's stealing my shitty quality, trashy cam pics I take for my twitter fans--I'd be the last to claim they were "art".
Kimberly Kane's, Ellen Stagg's, Bob Coulter's photos of me may be art. But not the ones this fake of mine is putting on Deviant Art in my name.